As I lay in bed this morning it went through my mind"What reasons do I have to get out of bed today?"
and do you know what? I could not think of one single reason. Now I am not writing this for sympathy, or advice. I am a great believer that life is what you make it. Having something to get up for in the mornings is in most cases completely up to oneself.
We all need something to get out of bed for in the mornings. Whether it be children, a job, school or a challenge. What if we have none of these in our lives? This was me this morning. Lack of direction, lack of motivation , but most of all there was this "I need to do better" thread weaving its way through my head. I need to FIND direction and a fulfilling goal , and follow it through. Finding purpose in life is not an easy task, especially seeing as I am not particularly unhappy, just unfulfilled.
I am the first to admit I am mentally lazy. To finish something I need a deadline. Without this I will neither start, nor complete a project. I need a "Rest of my Life"plan, but what I really want is someone to plan it for me. Is there such a thing as a life planner? A person who will come into my life, ask all the appropriate questions and come back the next day with a plan.. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!
So here I am at the crossroad of my life. Having to decide what road to take. What a conundrum.
Several seeds are planted in my head right now. Follow through with my passion for writing and go to university to study journalism. Put my excellent organisational skills to use and go back to work as a receptionist, or perhaps volunteer my time to helping those less fortunate than myself. Whatever I decide, I did get up this morning. I am taking control of my life, and whatever path I do decide to follow the journey to where it leads will be an adventure.
